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. . . love me . . . ?

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 03:40:26 GMT

This journal is now friends only. I'd reply if you want to stay... well. I'm, quite frankly, too lazy to do a friends list cut, and I just wanna know who still pays attention to my sporadic updates. XD

There's a lot of people on my friends list who I don't know. Reply and lemme know who you are please? Just to be nice. Thanks. <3

Comment to be added. It makes my life so. much. easier.

空に吸い込まれる人が居る
水に溶けていく人が居る
土に還っていく人が居る
此処ニ　其処ニ

--怨み言 . 蜉蝣--

.shoji

@_o

Sat, 16 Aug 2003 21:14:53 GMT

Yeah. Got back from Otakon on Monday. Had lots of fun there. Yeeeeees. X3 I met some cool people too and I made some money to put toward Savannah. Yay!

But yeah... moving into the dorms at UF tomorrow... fun fun fun. Anyways, I'll update the cosplay list when I get there and stuff. X3

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~Shoji

He still has the uncanny ability to make me cry...

Mon, 13 Jan 2003 02:11:12 GMT

Zachary says: sorry for being such an ass...
Amanda says: No, it's my fault...
Amanda says: The least I could've expected was that reaction.
Zachary says: well if you want to get technical.. it's both our faults really.
Amanda says: Yeah, well...
Zachary says: well?
Amanda says: Well nothing. It's both our faults.
Zachary says: yes.. that is what I said.
Amanda says: I know. I'm just restating the obvious, of course.
Zachary says: ah a philosopher eh?
Amanda says: Hardly. I'm dumb. I should learn to stop thinking so I can curb my stupidity.
Zachary says: ummm. no.
Zachary says: self defeating behavior is never the answer.
Zachary says: besides I didn't write you to make you feel bad.
Amanda says: You're not making me feel bad. It was a joke. ^^;;
Zachary says: funny. anyhow. when do you want your jade trinket?
Amanda says: You know I talk like that all the time...
Amanda says: I don't.
Zachary says: well too bad.
Zachary says: it seems wrong for me to have it.
Zachary says: I know my place.
Zachary says: Somone else deserves it.
Amanda says: It seems that way, but it's not. Keep it.
Amanda says: It's yours.
Zachary says: hehehe no it's not.
Zachary says: it's like Yoshi's or mark's or whatever.
Zachary says: sorry.
Amanda says: When do you want your pocket watch back?
Zachary says: hehehe no.. that's the irony.
Zachary says: you get to keep that little thing.
Zachary says: you see I never stopped... Even if the watch didn't tick anymore.. You still had it.
Zachary says: that's why I gave it to you.. you see the symbolism? I though very hard about it actually.
Zachary says: I gave it to you for a reason.. You see. I'm like the watch.. ( bare with me)
Zachary says: you can wind it, and it will still tick... Forget about it, and it won't. But it will always be there waiting for you to come back to it to wind, to put life back into it.
Zachary says: So I guess you can say it's a sort of allegory for our relationship.
Zachary says: so you can't give it back.. But you don't ever have to wind it again.
Amanda says: You still have this uncanny ability to make me cry whenever we chat, you know?
Zachary says: plus. in a pragmatic sense.
Zachary says: What am I gonna do with an old pocket watch?
Zachary says: yeah well.. I don't know why your crying.
Zachary says: in contrast.. your symbol.. I suppose you can say, was dead to begin with. Always appearing vibrant... But was still cold and inanimate.
Zachary says: that's what the dicerning eye can pick up on anyhow.
Zachary says: but that's ok..
Zachary says: no reason to cry.. Honestly. It's probably better this way.
Zachary says: I may have been worth crying over once.. but not now.. definitely not now.
Zachary says: So save your tears for someone else... I'll live either way.
Zachary says: and I still care about you.. So if you could... Just stop crying for my sake if not your own.

And it just went on from there... *sighs* It hurts in the bad way. Mattie, I need you but Stinkboy's on the 'net. >_< I'll try calling again, I suppose...

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~Myth

P is for psuedoyaoi...

Thu, 19 Dec 2002 20:15:11 GMT

Finally finished editing the yaoi pictures. Most of them are password protected on my site, but I really like a couple of them, so I'm separating them from the rest and putting them up. XD

The rest of the non-classified yaoi pics can be found here: http://www.luvluv.net/about/pictures/lacrima-de-sang/001/yaoibait/

Jahn, Natie, and Tadd? Get ahold of me if you want the rest of them. I have user accounts set up for you on the real directory. ^^

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~Myth

DIE, GACKT! DIE!

Wed, 18 Dec 2002 12:05:44 GMT

How much do you hate Gackt?
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The funny thing being that I'm actually indifferent to Gackt. I just want to kill him in horrible ways. ^^ And yes. I ruined his life, then killed myself to remove the taint. XD

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~Myth

Strung Out

Tue, 17 Dec 2002 21:33:20 GMT

I really like this piece... just playing around with charcoal. Kinda hard to be non-morbid when you're using charcoal for some reason. o.O

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~Myth

Voice actors?

Mon, 16 Dec 2002 11:39:29 GMT

Syphon's Myth is looking for voiceactors. Yeah, I know, a day before auditions close, but... If any one here is interested, gimme an auddie. Especially if you're the proud owner of a y chromosome. ^^ It's a great opportunity if you ever wanted to get into VAing... Here's the audition thread:

http://www.christine-lee.com/board/viewtopic.php?t=567

Anyways, you can reply to me with any questions if you want, since I can't always access flava... So whee! Have fun if you decide to do this. ^^

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~Myth

Whee!

Sat, 14 Dec 2002 15:23:54 GMT

Spent the night at Mattie's house last night! Yippee! Heee. I won't go into that, but I will talk about some of what happened...

I went up there under the guise of spending the night at Kelly's house. We hung out until 11 or so, then went over to Jahn's house. When we got there, Kelly was on the phone with Jahn, because she had to come up to spend the night. Oops. ^^;; Guess her plans fell through. Anyways, Matt and I just hung with Natie, Todd, Jahn, and Jackie. I went into Chinese whore mode and started whoring/molesting Natie and Todd... Then Jahn molested me. I never thought Jahn would ever hump me. It was quite disturbing, even though I love Jahn. *kisses to Kyoutei* ^_~ At about 12:30, we left... we didn't wait for Kelly cause she'd prolly get there at 1, and I had to leave at 7 in the morning anyways. So there was goodbye rape all around and Matt and I left for his house again.

And now, Matt's on his way to Miami, and I'm sitting here by myself. But my mommy's taking me back up to Orlando to buy me the jacket i've been drooling over. Yum. XD Yaaaay!

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~Myth

Do stalkers NEVER take a hint? ¬_¬

Mon, 02 Dec 2002 22:06:34 GMT

There's this guy stalking me online, I think. Possibly the most uninteresting creature ever. His typing's bad and he keeps wanting to meet up with me and "take me out on a date." I won't tell him my name, so yay for keeping one thing a secret. But he keeps asking me and... roar. XP Here's a conversation clip. Note lack of all punctuation and random assertions that just seem to anger me for no reason:

icedaluvaluva: hi
Ka0sChan: hi
icedaluvaluva: u stayed home
Ka0sChan: good observation. =P
icedaluvaluva: how was i observating
Ka0sChan: Nevermind.
icedaluvaluva: so u r feeling a little bit better
Ka0sChan: Not at all.
icedaluvaluva: so u think u will go to school tom.
Ka0sChan: yah
icedaluvaluva: so would i b able to no ur name yet
Ka0sChan: no
icedaluvaluva: ok
icedaluvaluva: u want to go to a game
Ka0sChan: no
icedaluvaluva: u dont want to see jordon
Ka0sChan: No, I don't.
icedaluvaluva: ok

I mean, what kind of person has to degenerate to asking out girls online WHOSE NAMES HE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW?! XP Previously, he's asked me if he could take me out on a date... I don't know a thing about him. I'll prolly block him soon if he doesn't leave me alone of his own accord. Anyways, feel free to play with him. I don't care. XP

And I'm dying. They put me on 100 dollars worth of drugs! Yay!

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~Myth

Boobs!

Sat, 30 Nov 2002 15:45:50 GMT

Took it once...

Took it again for fun and changed some of my answers...

XD Fun.

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~Myth

I love you James. I really do.

Sat, 30 Nov 2002 01:46:45 GMT

We always have the most amusing conversations. This deserved a spotlight. XD

Crude oil is good for fish, they like it. It's like vitamins says:
I'm changing my email, I'm tired of spam.
Amanda says:
awww... But I signed you up for all those porn sites myself... ;_;
Crude oil is good for fish, they like it. It's like vitamins says:
I know, and I signed up for the other half. But I'm tired of all the penis enlargment ads.. isn't it big enough!?
Amanda says:
It can never be big enough. *nods sagely*
Crude oil is good for fish, they like it. It's like vitamins says:
Oh, sure it can.
Amanda says:
It's not big enough until everytime you make sex, the woman screams "OH GOD! THAT WAS MY CERVIX!!!"
Crude oil is good for fish, they like it. It's like vitamins says:
In that case, it's big enough. I was ready for some passionate love making, but I was not ready to have my girlfriend walking like a pirate or something for the next two weeks.
Amanda says:
A pirate? Perhaps a .... BUTT PIRATE?! *dun dun DUUUUUN!*
Crude oil is good for fish, they like it. It's like vitamins says:
I.. I don't know.
Amanda says:
...Speaking of pirates, I signed you up for a seaman fetish site. Hope you like it.
Crude oil is good for fish, they like it. It's like vitamins says:
I like seamen!
Crude oil is good for fish, they like it. It's like vitamins says:
Do you like seamen too!?
Amanda says:
YES. I LOVE SEAMEN.
Amanda says:
We were made for each other! *swoons!*
Crude oil is good for fish, they like it. It's like vitamins says:
Hooray!

Tehehe. XD

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~Myth

Whee!

Tue, 26 Nov 2002 11:46:52 GMT

I have this strange habit of not doing any of my schoolwork until the end of the 9 weeks, yet, for some reason, my teachers will always acquiese and let me turn it in, even if it's 9 weeks late. Strange? I think so. I've had a bio project due for a couple weeks now... I really should do it.

The new band should be meeting up this weekend... I'm writing out the score parts by hand. Tablature can kiss my ass... fuckers. >_< I only have normal composition paper. Nooooo, tablature has 4, 6, or 7 lines. Damn you guitars and basses and your non-5 number of strings. *shakes fist* Anyways, I'll be working on that so we have something to play with on Sunday. Yaaaaay! ^^

So the new band has all it's members in line. Here's the list:

Vocals: Me (Shougai)
Lead Guitar: Eric Wright
Rhythm: Matt Kramer (Shiro)
Bass: Greg (Aki)
Drums: Drew Becker

Hopefully, this'll all work out smoothly. Hopefully. ^^;;

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~Myth

Muahaha... new quiz...

Mon, 25 Nov 2002 11:35:44 GMT

This' the new quiz that I made... XD

What member of Lacrima de Sang are you?
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And here're some results from others....

Which Hospitalized J-rock Theatre J-rocker are you?
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What Jrocktheatre jrocker are you?
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Yaaaay!

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~Myth

I blame Jahn. ^^

Fri, 22 Nov 2002 11:29:01 GMT

See these questions? Answer or DIE. Yesh, DIE. If you fail to answer, there will be vast amounts of soul annihilation. ^^

1. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
2. What characters remind you of me (real life, anime, literary, or game, etc...)?
3. Do you find me sexy?
4. Have we ever kissed?
5. Do you think I'm a virgin?
6. If you just met me how old would you guess I am?
7. Do I strike you more as a seme type or more of an uke type?
8. If you could give me anything... what would it be?
9. If you could promise me anything.. what would it be?
10. Do I remind you of any j-rocker(s) / who?
11. Are you one of my stalkers?
12. If you saw me without knowing me would I intimidate you?
13. Have we ever hugged?
14. Do you have a nickname for me / what?
15. What animal do I remind you of?
16. Have we ever met in person?
17. Do you lurv me?
18. Have you ever acted with me? (VAing included)
19. Have we ever made plans to meet up?
20. Have you ever molested me at a con?

I added 4 questions from Jahn's list... yeah. XD Have fun. Just fill the sucker out. XD

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~Myth

Quizzy!

Thu, 21 Nov 2002 11:41:29 GMT

How ASIAN are you?

Brought to you by the good folks at sacwriters.com.

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~Myth

Mew

Wed, 20 Nov 2002 11:47:26 GMT

"Yet if hope has flown away
In a night or in a day
In a vision or in none
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream."

--Edgar Allen Poe

Ah... Poe-written hope poetry... XD I committed this to memory a long time ago, when I was really into Battle Angel Alita... but I just recalled it now. I'm not sure why. Oh well. Maybe it's a subconscious thing. *shrugs*

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~Myth

Muahaha... I blame Katie.

Wed, 13 Nov 2002 21:42:20 GMT

What's YOUR Writing Style?
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// series one - as usual
-- Name: Amanda Francis
-- Birthdate: September 23, 1985
-- Birthplace: Crownpoint, Indiana
-- Current Location: Melbourne
-- Eye Color: Brown with some purply tint
-- Hair Color: Dark brown... at the moment!
-- Righty or Lefty: Right
-- Zodiac Sign: Virgo/Libra
-- Innie or Outtie: Innie

// series two - describe
-- Your heritage: 50% Chinese, 25% Irish, 25% Spanish Gypsy
-- The shoes you wore today: My Harley Boots
-- Your hair: Long in the back, collarbone length in front, kinda layered and angled...
-- Your eyes: ...Pretty?
-- Your weakness?: Boys with pretty eyes. *melts* Oh, and Toshiya.
-- Your fears: I fear losing sight of what's really important.
-- Your perfect pizza: Extra cheese and mushrooms. Mmmm...
-- One thing you'd like to achieve: I want to survive doing what I love to do (Comics, theatre, music).

// series three - what is
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: "Your Mom!"
-- Your thoughts first waking up: "...Fuck, I didn't do my homework..."
-- Your best physical feature: My eyes
-- Your bedtime: Anywhere from 10PM to 4AM
-- Your greatest fear: Losing sight of what's important...
-- Your greatest accomplishment: Doing all I do without going insane! Yay!
-- Your most missed memory: My father.

// series four - you prefer
-- Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi!
-- McDonald's or Burger King: McDonalds.
-- Single or group dates: Depends on who I'm with... ^_~
-- Adidas or Nike: Niko
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton!
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
-- Cappuccino or coffee: FRAPPUCINO!
-- Boxers or briefs: Boxers

// series five - do you
-- Smoke: Nope.
-- Cuss: All the time!
-- Sing well: Yesh
-- Take a shower everyday: Yeah
-- Have a crush(es): What girl is complete without them?
-- Who are they: Toshiya, Gackt, random Jrockers, my husbands in Orlando, Matt, Matt, Mattie Matt Matt Matt... XD
-- Do you think you've been in love: Yes.
-- Want to go to college: Yesh!
-- Like high school: Kind of.
-- Want to get married: Yep!
-- Type with your fingers on the right keys: I don't think so...
-- Believe in yourself: At all times.
-- Get motion sickness: Sometimes. On boats.
-- Think you're attractive: Usually, I look at least vaguely pretty. But I still think I'm chubby. XP
-- Think you're a health freak: Definitely not.
-- Get along with your parents: Not really.
-- Like thunderstorms: Yesh
-- Play an instrument: I play violin, piano, and I sing...

// series six - in the past month, did/have you
-- Drank alcohol: Nope
-- Smoke(d): Naw
-- Done a drug: None
-- Have Sex: Yesh
-- Made Out: Yeah
-- Go on a date: Yeah
-- Go to the mall?: Yes
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Almost!
-- Eaten sushi: Yep!
-- Been on stage: Several times
-- Been dumped: Nope
-- Gone skating: No
-- Made homemade cookies: Nope
-- Been in love: Yes
-- Gone skinny dipping: No
-- Dyed your hair: A month ago, my hair was purple...
-- Stolen anything: Nope

// series seven - have you ever
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing?: Yesh
-- If so, was it mixed company: Yeah
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: No
-- Been caught "doing something": Nope
-- Been called a tease: Yeah.
-- Gotten beaten up: Nope
-- Shoplifted: No
-- If so, did you get caught: No
-- Changed who you were to fit in: Never

// series eight - the future
-- Age you hope to be married: Not until I've got a set job.
-- Numbers and Names of Children: No idea yet.
-- Descibe your Dream Wedding: ...I really have no idea.
-- How do you want to die: Tragically. ^^
-- Where you want to go to college: UF and SCAD
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: Artist, Acter, Singer
-- What country would you most like to visit: Japan and China

// series nine - opposite sex (or the same?)
-- Best eye color?: Matters not as long as they're gorgeous. ^_~
-- Best hair color? Doesn't matter to me.
-- Short or long hair?: Not super short, but not girlishly long. Well, unless they pull it off well.
-- Best height: Taller than me is preferable
-- Best weight: Not too skinny, but not too fat... Kinda in the middle.
-- Best articles of clothing: Anything JRockish
-- Best first date location: Depends
-- Best first kiss location: In the rain. ^^

// series ten - number of
-- Number of girls I've kissed in my life: None
-- Number of girls I've made out with: none
-- Number of girlfriends I've had: None
-- Number of boys I've kissed: ...I don't think I can count them all...
-- Number of boys you have made out with: Probably between 5 and 10. I really don't pay attention to these things. ^^;
-- Number of boyfriends I've had: I really can't remember. I used to have such a hard time saying no to boys when they asked me out... ^^;;
-- Number of people I've had sex with: 3
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: None
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 5
-- Number of CDs that I own: Too many to count.
-- Number of piercings: One in my ears, and a healed over bellybutton piercing.
-- Number of tattoos: None
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: Several
-- Number of scars on my body: Too many
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: Nothing.
Ten bands/artists you couldn't live without:
1. Pierrot
2. Dir en Grey
3. SADS/Kuroyume
4. Kagerou
5. Janne da Arc
6. Due Le Quartz
7. Glay
8. L'arc en Ciel
9. Redrum
10. Kagrra
Nine songs that are important to you:
1. Mr. Newsman by Dir en Grey
2. Urami Koto by Kagerou
3. Cage by Dir en Grey
4. Agitator by Pierrot
5. Mass Game by Pierrot
6. Pretty Polly by Queen Adreena
7. Q by Redrum
8. First Love by Utada Hikaru
9. Love Song/Diary of a Madman by A Perfect Circle
Eight things you are wearing:
1. Black wrap shirt
2. My studded express jeans
3. Bra
4. Panties
5. Several bracelets
6. 15 safety pins
7. A black tie
8. My 10 cent engagement rings. XD
Seven people that have influenced your life the most:
1. My father
2. Zach
3. Mattie Mattie Matt Matt
4. Yukito Kishiro
5. Hiroaki Samura
6. Toshiya (Because he's a manwhore)
7. TamTu!
Six of your favorite albums at this moment:
1. 6 Ugly from Dir en Grey
2. Parallel Side Of soundtrack
3. The "-O-" soundtrack from Cirque
4. The Dir en grey remix soundtrack
5. "Private Enemy" from Pierrot
6. "Heaven the Customizable Landscape" from Pierrot
Five TV shows you watch regularly:
1. 6 Feet Under
2. Sopranos
3. ---
4. ---
5. ---
Four movies you'd watch over and over:
1. Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon XDXDXD
2. All my Jrock dvds. I know they're not movies. XP
3. Parallel Side Of...
4. A Beautiful Mind
Three of your all-time-favorite books:
1. Clockwork Orange
2. Catch-22
3. Alice's Adventures in Wonderland
Two albums you bought recently: Haven't bought any recently
One person you want to spend the rest of your life with: Toshiya. Or Mattie. ^_~

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~Myth

Boys in Makeup = Fun

Wed, 13 Nov 2002 11:34:01 GMT

Yesterday, I ended up skipping school because I had that bio project due and I didn't do it. I still haven't, but... well... Anyways, I skipped out with my other friend Matt yesterday and we hung around the bowling alley for about an hour waiting for it to open, because I wanted to force him to play DDR. The boys this little martial arts genius, but he can't put his feet on arrows. It's funny. XD Then we went to my house and watched some random JRock things, because I've gotten him addicted, and we had a funny little conversations:

"Amanda?"
"Yeah?"
"...Put makeup on me."
"...What? o.o"

You can imagine my surprise. True, he's gonna be in a JRock band with me, but he's quite the masculine guy. 5'8", between 180-200 pounds of muscle... It was kinda amusing to say the least. So I did him up crackwhore JRock style. And it was good. Oh yes. The foundation wasn't his color, but he looks good with makeup on. XD After he washed it off, he couldn't get all the eyeliner off... the results were pretty funny.

"Fuck! I can't get all the eyeliner off! I look ever so gay!"
"Like putting the makeup on in the first place wasn't?"
"...Yeah, well. *looks at himself* Fuck, I'm gonna get my ass kicked when I go back to school, aren't I?"
"Tehehe... yep!"

I took him back to school, then came home and got my oil changed. I talked to Jahn on the phone for about 20 minutes as my oil was being changed, so whee fun. XD Then I came home and messed with the computer for a while when I should've been working on that fucking DNA molecule. Blargh. Oh well. XD I'll do it during school today...

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~Myth

Been a bit...

Tue, 12 Nov 2002 11:45:57 GMT

Since I last posted, of course. But all's well, since I'm typing again.

My play went up with Playwright's workshop this weekend... I'll be getting a tape of the performance and I'll see if I can put some of it online. Maybe. Possibly. I hung out with my Matt-ie yesterday, because I didn't have school and somehow talked him into skipping. Which was fun. Yeeeees... We hung around his house for a while, then had to leap out of his window because his mom came home. So then we hung around the Oviedo marketplace for hours, where we read the Tim Burton poem book about the Melancholy Death of Oyster Boy and some of the other Gorey books until school let out and we hung out with Jahn, Jamie, and Natie. XD Yaaaay!

Now, my new (old) obsession: Japanese Fashion. There's a lots of sites on the net and lots of sellers on Ebay selling all this stuff... and I want to update my freaking wardrobe, dammit. I need money. >_< Really freaking bad. I'm trying to get a job, but it doesn't seem to be working. *sigh* I just gotta try a little harder. Or whore myself. One or the other. XD So if anyone wants to donate to the Get-Amanda-Some-Decent-Clothing Fund, feel free. ^_~

Anyways, I'm out.

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~Myth